It’s not uncommon for me to commit to a creative project - a dance performance, for example, like our upcoming show on June 28th - and then soon after regret the decision. As in: “Ughhh what the hell was I thinking?! Why did I decide to DO this??”
1 week into the #danceinmay2019 challenge, I popped on video to ask the group of participants to ask themselves:
who are you doing this for?
And of course I was asking myself the same question. So many times in the past I’ve participated in 30-day meditation challenges or the like, only to find myself petering out after a few days. Afterwards, I’d judge myself harshly as being lazy and noncommittal.Read More
To the negative reviews and comments: for teaching me that not everyone will always like and approve of me or my words, and that’s ok, and I’m still ok.
To the negative bank account: for giving me the opportunity to realize that I’ll still exist and I still have value regardless of what the numbers say.
To the negative mood: for reminding me that boundaries are important and alone time can be medicine.
“Spell your name in a dance, across the floor.”
They gave us this prompt at the audition for Oakland Ballet and I nearly froze in fear.
Improvise?! Perform something random that I create, that is not following exact choreography?! Nooooooo!!
That was 19-year-old me, and oh man was I stuck in the technical pursuit of perfection, without any sense of creative expression or me and my own voice.Read More
my hamstrings hurt. too stretched out.
Ya know what that means? Too many downward dogs. Troppo yoga. (That means “too much yoga” in Italian.)
Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against yoga. I love many forms of it. Years ago it was the physical practice that kept me connected with my body after I quit ballet. Lots of gratitude for it and for those who are called to practice and teach it.
I just have one issue. In general, there’s troppo yoga and poco danza. (That means “too much yoga and too little dance” in Italian.)Read More
ever had these thoughts go through your head? -->
“I don’t feel qualified to lead dance classes.”
“Will anyone show up?”
“How will I afford a space?”
“Do I need to create a name and logo?”
How many times have you thought about that thing you really would love to create, but then let these kinda thoughts hold you back? This is what I call “overcomplicanning” - the combo of overcomplicating and overplanning. It can easily snowball into a giant mental block that stops you from taking physical action on an inspired idea….Read More
7 years ago today, I held my first creativity workshop, which essentially was the start of my business.
Back then, I’d started out as a women’s holistic health coach (shout out to my first mentor Alisa and floliving.com), and while I loved the work, I was also recognizing how something else in me was ready to be born.
Although I was terrified, I put a note out to all my contacts, letting them know that I was experimenting with something new…
a parable on the evolution of a creative idea:
The idea strikes. Gold! You’re inspired, excited, all feels possible.
Maybe you even tell a friend about it or announce it on Instagram.
And then you begin. You start creating.
You feel great for a bit, but then you hit a wall. It gets hard…
“This was a dumb idea. What was I thinking?”Read More
I started to make dance videos in 2009 on my iPod mini. As someone who was dabbling with the idea of getting back into dance, the video platform was a fun outlet to play with.
To make dance videos alone in my room, it gave me the creative freedom I never had in my past traditional dance environments. Since I wasn’t up for the mental anguish that a dance classroom setting might cause (i.e. the risk of putting myself in a competitive environment where all the “real dancers” would judge me and I wouldn’t be able to keep up), I liked the idea of dancing on my own, but also having the option of an audience through whoever might see the dance video.Read More
do I know if there can be a ballet world that doesn’t hurt women?
I consider the question as someone who spent her adolescence in the trenches of classical ballet training at the Joffrey in New York City, who quit at 19 years old before having direct professional experience, and who now teaches a bunch of adult beginner ballet classes in Brooklyn, while also being a coach and working on my own dance expression through videos and live performances…Read More
“I feel like I’m over-the-hill in dance years.”
I was 33 years old and saying this on stage to a panel of judges, after performing my solo dance piece in the New York’s Got Talent competition show.
For years after I quit dancing, I would pop into yoga classes on the regular and it felt pretty good in my body - similar to the full body experience that a dance class used to be for me.
But then something happened.
I started to get BORED.Read More
poolside dance-video-making with a 10-year-old, lots of gluten filled foods, a few pina coladas, Jersey accents galore, pushing a wheelchair up and down the boardwalk, writing an instagram post influenced by my PMS, lots of sleep.
in-office dance facilitation for a group of women business owners, lots of flax seeds, a few matcha lattes, 3 networking events, many hours of focused work time, writing out new program content and this blog post, could use more sleep.Read More